10.15.2013

Keepin' It Real - Kayla Layla Style

I was initially going to write my crafty blog post for today, but my camera is all the way in the spare bedroom, and Chordie and I are cuddle up on the couch in the living room. It's too far away to go get, so instead I'm gonna just keep it real.

I'd also like to mention I'm now rewarding myself for blog posting with bowls of Chocolate Lucky Charms. I cannot wait.

I'm actually writing this post on Monday night and scheduling it for Tuesday morning. Why? Because I'm annoyed with the Cardinals right now and how stupid Jon Jay has been tonight. Normally I don't get super worked up, but Bradley is on a roll right now and he's fueling my fire. Plus, I'm already cranky because this night has flown by and I'm not ready to go to bed just to get up and go to work tomorrow morning. I want to sleep in with my Bradley and my Chordie and pretend like it's Sunday again. I don't think that's a lot to ask.

As I was doing my usual blog-creepin' tonight I realized that an absurd amount of you have those robot things where you have to type the random gibberish text and numbers so that you can post your comments. This drives me bat shit crazy. Sometimes, I have to enter them so many times I honestly start to wonder whether or not I am in fact a robot. My iPhone and iPad want to autocorrect everything I type, and then if I click out of the text box for any reason, I can't edit it or add anything else, I can only publish or exit out and re-write my comment. My OCD hates this part of the process. So please, if you love me, remove your robot defense mechanisms so that I can stalk your blogs and comment without issue.

We've been stressing a lot lately over here at the Glover house about how we're going to afford our wedding. Since buying our house, we sank the savings that we had into furnishing it and we had to start all over again. Our original wedding date was October 12th (which was this past Saturday) and we pushed the date back to May 31st. Sunday morning we went to the place where we are having our reception because they were having a buffet breakfast to raise money for Parkinson's research and it was a little surreal to think that we would have been a married couple that day. Now, we're still living in sin and praying we can win the lottery just to be able to have the wedding of our incredibly limited and scaled back dreams. Life is such a bitch sometimes.

I haven't stepped on a scale in a couple of weeks since I got sick, but if I had to guess, I'd say I've gained back all of the weight I lost for the diet bet. As I sit here and fiend for the Chocolate Lucky Charms I'm about to enjoy, a part of me wonders why I keep struggling with this. I'm reading about how all of my favorite bloggers are doing this Advocare Cleanse, eating healthy, and having satisfyingly regular bowel movements. Why don't I jump on this bandwagon and see what it's all about? I'll tell you why. I'm fat, I'm lazy, I'm stressed about money, time, my car, the cold weather, whether or not Bradley is going to eat tonight's leftovers before I can take them in my lunch, how it's only Tuesday, etc. Basically, I am full of excuses. I feel like the world is spinning around me and I'm catching glimpses of all of these things I want in life, and how everyone else is going out there and getting them. I feel like I'm standing still in the middle of the spinning instead of moving with the flow and going after what I want. I can't quite figure out why I'm holding myself back. Paging Dr. Freud.

I'm really loving all of the questions I've gotten so far for my Q&A post. I'm thinking instead of a 5 on Friday linkup, I'll post my answers to all of your questions. Don't forget, the person with the best question gets to humor me like I'm actually a big deal and write a guest post :) I know that incentive alone is keeping you all up at night wracking your brains for the perfect questions that you're just dying to know the answers to. Keep 'em coming!

Whew, I'm so glad I got this done, Bradley just delivered my bowl of cereal. Time to eat my feelings!

12 comments:

  1. Hang in there chicky! We all get stuck in the molasses swamp from time to time!

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  2. I feel ya on the "world is spinning around me" front. My twenties have been a bitch. You have all of these huge life moments, or moments in life that are supposed to be huge, and they don't live up to your expectations. It can suck sometimes.

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  3. I have been wondering why some blogs (including mine) have the word verification and others don't. You encouraged me to google it and successfully (I think) get rid of it :)

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  4. Yep, I turned it off and was relying on comment moderation, but then turned that off about a week ago when I realized that the spammers haven't found me yet anyway (although now that I've typed that, I jinxed myself didn't I?)

    I think you described most people, they just don't blog about their excuses or low moments....we all go have it (most weekends for me.)

    and the wedding business? I'm all for simple and classy, meaning small. I only had 44 people at my wedding and ten years later still get compliments on how intimate and quaint the wedding was.

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  5. I can get all psycho-babble on you if you want about why you are holding yourself back. Meanwhile, I'm entering another Q&A b/c I'm full of myself and need this guest post:

    Finish the story:

    I was headed to the grocery store to get another box of chocolate Lucky Charms (dear inventor if this blessed cereal: I could kiss you right on the mouth). When I arrived at the store I saw a homeless man sitting right in front of the delightful boxes of goodness, blocking my path to deliciousness. I must have looked startled because he looks up at me and says, "Don't be alarmed Kayla Layla. I'm only here to help." Immediately, I....

    Have fun with that one!

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  6. Sing it sister! I'm feeling the same way on quite a few of your points, especially hte wedding/house stuff. Now Chuck wants a new motorcycle. money is a pain.

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  7. Mmmmmm ... I love the kid "sugary" cereals. I indulge often ... the try to out cardio my calories :)

    I agree on the word verification ... I guess I can understand if it's a blogger with a HUGE following, and thus a lot of spammers. I haven't been hit by spammers yet. I'd just go to moderated, I dislike the word verification so much, I'd never resort to it. There have been a few times when I've tried to comment and haven't been able to read the little letters/numbers and I just gave up and didn't comment after all.

    We had a very inexpensive wedding, just a backyard reception ... it was 21 years ago, but it was inexpensive then too. Still happily married today :)

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  8. I can't think of a question, I feel like any that I think of will have been asked already. Since I have until Friday, or Thursday, I'll try to think of something. lol.
    And you're description of standing in the middle while everything is whizzing by you is perfect. I'm standing there with you, girl! Wonder why I'm holding myself back as well. It sucks. I chalk it up to lack of confidence, for me.
    I say DIY as much as you can when it comes to the wedding! We made our favors (homemade candy), I designed, printed and cut the invitations myself. It wasn't a lot, but that was a little bit that we saved. And also really keep your eyes out for sales! What kind of "theme" or whatnot are you two going with?

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  9. So funny that I was complaining about Jon Jay again tonight and then read that in your blog! I'm not a fair weather fan at all but I'm not sure what's up with that guy lately. When he's at bat it looks like he's trying to play golf, not baseball.

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  10. I hate those friggen robot things too!! The SAME thing happens to me on my iPad! Eff those things!
    Don't be so hard on yourself, you're gorgeous! It will get better! And now, I'm off to eat some cookies!
    As for the wedding, don't stress. I know, I know, easier said than done. I was so stressed about money and crap leading up to our wedding. It was horrible. I was a raging bitch. Jason and I don't fight, other than when we were trying to sort out finances for the wedding. It all worked out. We scaled a few things down, but I look back on the day and I was perfect! Good luck girl!

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  11. I am feeling the exact same way you are chick!! I have been in a major funk lately. I hsvent blogged in over 2 weeks....just creep on everyone else's blogs lol. Hang in there!!

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  12. I feel ya some completely girl. Why do weddings and healthy living have to be so expensive and hard?? So you guys have picked a venue for sure?? Tell me about it?!

    Jen
    Jen.amileamemory@gmail.com

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